Sometimes
Sometimes you just need to pause, take a breath, and re-evaluate a situation. I have been involved with this one very special girl for, on and off, a little more than 3 years. We’ve been through so much together and up until this point I have always thought, without any doubt, that this was the girl I would marry one day. Now, I find myself in a rather confusing situation, we are not together, however we continue to live life as though we are. I sleep at her house, I take her to work, I tell her I love her but overall something is missing and theres that haunting thought in the back of my head- “What if this is all just one huge game?” Recently I had an awesome opportunity and head out with my band to record with Craig Owens and Matt Dalton in Detroit. When I left for tracking things were one way and then when I came back they were totally opposite. I spoke to Craig about alot more than just music - we spoke alot about life. The most important thing I came away with besides confidence is the fact that you can’t make someone want something. When you wake up in the morning and you have that sick feeling in your gut, when the cons finally outweigh the pros thats when you know its time to go home. So should I go home? Am I going to pick up and cut my losses? Personally, I don’t know. But I need a sign of life in this ordeal, I need a spark for my heart and my mind.